Just 'cause

I just need to vent a bit. I was watching oprah today..not a normal thing for me. But they were talking about abusive realtionships. And i can't even tell you the feelings that flooded back to me while watching this show. My ex had so many issues. And he always made me feel like it was my fault and very emotionaly abusive. He would tell me where i could go. He got mad at me if i was looking around because he thought i was trying to check other guys out..then i just started looking down alot. And i never was looking at other guys. REALLY! I realized the other day that i still do that from time to time just out of habbit. He would get so mad if i talked to my family and/or friends. And he would drink and get so mad and me and i wouldn't ever understand why and then in the morning he wouldn't remember. It was terrible and i am so glad that i am not in that anymore. Who knows what might have happened to me. i am so lucky to have Ben. He told me the other day that he hated how badly my ex had treated me. That felt so good. i didn't know that he even thought about it. And looking back on it i feel so stupid that i let him treat me that way. Love isn't supposed to be like that. I guess my point is that things can get better no matter how bad things are. And stand up for yourself..

naptime and new fish!

So there was 2 whole hours of quiet time at my house today it was so wonderful and you may ask how this was possibble...






So any way it was very wonderful. And also while they were asleep i got some new fish brought to me. So it was a good afternoon!



It is a little fuzzy. But the new fish is the big orange fish and the alge eater. He is in there, just a little hard to see.

bear

So yes we probably are crazy. but we have added a nw dog to our list of animals. This one is hopefuly small enough not to chew everything up..like the last one did. she is really cute and i was mostly kidding when i said we could call her bear. Ben liked the idea and bear stuck. So now we will have a tiny dog called bear. Ha ha..funny funny.

February

So February is a busy month for us. It is Bens birthday this month and he is turning 26. Of course you all now that it is Valentines on the 14th. The other big day for me and my husband is the 28th of february. It will mean that we have been married for 2 whole years and it has been so wonderful. He really is a great husband. I just have to think of something to get him. He says he has some stuff planed. i am way ecxited for that. He can't keep suprises from me very well. So we will have to see what he has for me!! So happy valentines to everyone.

kids

So here are some new pics. My baby girl is now 4 months old. And getting bigger and bigger. So i put some pictures of her up. And there are some of tristan as well. I am just lucky that i got a picture of Tristan he always hides his face. So i got him!! And of course he is watching Sponge Bob!

More Mackenzie

Here are some pictures of my baby girl Mackenzie. Just because i really like them. Ben actually took these. Anyway I think they are really cute. She is getting so big and smiling and laughing even more it is the cutest thing. She has been such a wonderful little spirit in our lives!!!

My bike

So i got to get a new bike yesterday. I am so excited about it. My hubby was teaching me. I haven't ever been on a bike by myself i am usually on the back of Ben's bike. So I tried to make a turn and yep i droped the bike and got a huge knot on my leg. Not so fun. But other than that it was good. I am excited to get in more practice and to get better. Fun Stuff!!